Much of
scientific methodology encourages independence from the test subject in the
case of the ecologist these are the birds and animals we observe. I have written
before about my views on anthropomorphism and their place in study. I find it
hard to be entirely cold and calculating when observing wildlife, spend enough
time doing so and you will soon begin to understand the patterns.
So, what
prompted this internal dialogue? I spent some of the past weekend photographing
birds in my garden. Taking time to practice with my camera and appreciating the
common nature of their behaviour. Once I had done this for a few hours I
returned inside. It was then that I was called back to the garden to see a
Sparrowhawk that had caught something and landed on the pergola.
Sparrowhawks
are relatively common to my garden and I have several photos of them perched in
the tree and some of them devouring their unlucky prey. A thrill of excitement
flowed through me. This was nature in action, an example of a hunter in its
prime feeding to survive. It was only when the hawk moved to the birdbath and
revealed the deep orange red breast of a robin in its talons that my interest
instantly changed to horror.
Two robins
visit the garden. They are delightful birds and highly inquisitive. They potter
about gardeners looking for grubs and can be quite easily encouraged to feed from
the hand. When I supposed the Sparrowhawk had caught a starling or sparrow as
it normally did, I was fairly non-plussed, I had some thought of the life ended
but in reality, starlings and sparrows were faceless. The robin was something different.
It had a stronger identity. Perhaps the identity is born from its cultural
relevance in the UK, the iconic Christmas bird or maybe it is their generally
friendly nature. Either way this death shook me more. So much so that I
followed my mother to frighten the hawk away even though the robin was past saving.
The interaction shook us both and left me considering my prejudices. The
sparrowhawk was doing what it does naturally, something I was fine with as long
as it took from the faceless masses or birds to which I had less of a
connection with.
So where
does this revelation leave me. For one I can acknowledge how connected I become
to wildlife, how I seem to value one species above another and accept that
nature will do as nature does. Lastly that to be a good naturalist one needs to
allow one’s emotions to embrace the world where instead the ecologist may stand
remote and calculating, the naturalist does their best work when immersed in
their subject and connected to it on the deepest level. What the robin incident
showed me was the conflict between the scientific ecologist in me and the
naturalist, and I think it is a blend of these two approaches that help me to
understand the natural world all the better.